Creating the Crow
I felt like everything was black, the other day.
I could barely get through the day, let alone my work,
and I had a lot of dark thoughts.
It's like this creeping finger right at the back of you head
sending shivers down your spine
That's what it's like when I'm going through a black period.
I can't even say for sure if I am "better".
Maybe treading water is the closest to how I'm feeling right now, which is why I can resurface and create this blog post. However at any moment I am very aware of how fast I can be swallowed up into the void of the creeping fears and paranoia that rule the darker parts of my mind.
I called my girlfriend and she told me, because she couldn't take leave and come home and be with me, a good way to work through the pain and fear was to channel it into something, and she suggested that I draw something. And that is how the crow was born.
So what you see here is my process. It was created over several hours, which I have condensed into 8 minutes.
And below the video is the final product.
THE CROW
When my girlfriend saw it
she said
"Ah. I can see how you've been
feeling today. It looks dark."
This is why I'm with her. She's not afraid, even when I am.
I can rely on her to make something scary
bearable.
She is my anchor.
The water in which the crow stands on.
The stability within the change.
Yes, I am the darkness. I am the crow.
Acrylic on Cartridge Paper
Created by Aidah
2019
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